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Mark Diacono's avatar

I'm adding Lesley's really beautiful post, to make it easy for anyone interested to find it

https://substack.com/home/post/p-164536335

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Frances's avatar

Oh, Mark. I'm so heartbroken reading this. I know that's not your intention but the tears have just come, and I feel every word. I often wonder how long it takes for grief to leave us. I'm not sure it ever can. But if all you've done and become since your dad's passing is all the better then your life is well-lived. As you say, we don't know how long we've got. Thank you for letting us in. Such beautiful evocative writing.

Frances

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Vanilla Black's avatar

Bloody hell Mark, you shouldn’t do that, tears tarnish my hard image.

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Mark Diacono's avatar

I’m sorry VB, but someone has to see that behind that brutish, coarse exterior lies a man with FEELINGS

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Vanilla Black's avatar

Tut! I’m going for a fight.

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Jennifer Earle (Jen)'s avatar

❤️ You write so beautifully.

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Mark Diacono's avatar

Thank you Jen, what a lovely thing to say

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Allison's avatar

So beautifully written and very sad. I have a difficult relationship with both my parents and live on the other side of the world. It makes me very sad to think about them not being around. Thank you for sharing this. It didn't feel right just to click on the heart and leave it at that.

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Mark Diacono's avatar

Thank you Allison, and for taking the time to write. I really feel for you having a tricky relationship with your parents - I hope you are able to find a way of it being better, if that’s something you want. It seems incredible how easy it is for us all to complicate the seemingly simple.

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Catherine Dibble's avatar

I started writing on what would have been my Mum's 93rd birthday if she hadn't died two months earlier. That was nearly two years ago and I'm still pouring out gratitude every day. Writing has become my meditation. It's a powerful means of acknowledging the richness that others give to our lives. The way that you have chosen to live since your Dad's death exemplifies that perfectly. Thank you, Mark, and I feel that we should also thank your Dad - the source of your epiphany.

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Mark Diacono's avatar

I’m so glad you found writing Catherine - it gives much more than we might even hope, in my experience. Thank you for your words

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Rosy Gee's avatar

Beautifully written, Mark. Poignant and powerful. My Dad died when I was 27. He was 51. I still miss him terribly. Things like calling when the cricket is going well. They will never leave you. The ties that keep us close.

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Mark Diacono's avatar

I’m sorry for your loss Rosy, and you are so right about the ties

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Rosy Gee's avatar

Thanks, Mark and for subscribing to Rosy’s Ramblings. I will have to up my game!

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Gillian Bevan's avatar

There is only so much time…….takes a lifetime sometimes to find out . This was a brilliant read.

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Mark Diacono's avatar

Thank you, and yes, that is so true - it’s utterly unbelievable when you feel like you have all the time in the world

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Jenny crawford's avatar

Thank you - a heart felt reading. Wanting to phone your dad is exactly how I often feel. My dad died 60 years ago and there are so many things

I didn’t ask him. My mum passed away 10 years ago. I still catch myself picking up the phone and starting to dial her number to tell her something about my day.

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Mark Diacono's avatar

Thank you Jenny. Funny how we still reach for that phone

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Suddenly Last Summer's avatar

Beautiful writing. And brought back memories for me of being in Winchester - my two babies (now 44 and 43!) were born there - we lived in New Alresford.

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Mark Diacono's avatar

Thank you. Such a lovely part of the world isn’t it. I miss the smell of applewood and hoppy ale from the old pubs as the chalky landscapes. I’m due a visit

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Diana Morgan's avatar

Lovely, moving writing Mark.

And a gratin without cheese - hooray! Thank you.

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Mark Diacono's avatar

Thank you Diana. I think I prefer them without cheese!

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Amela Marin's avatar

What a wonderful and deeply moving story.

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Mark Diacono's avatar

Thank you Amela

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Jan Miller's avatar

That is a wonderful piece, Mark, Thankyou.

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Mark Diacono's avatar

Thank you Jan

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Casa Lucia di Lucy Hayward's avatar

Oh Mark. Hugs 🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗

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Mark Diacono's avatar

Thank you Lucy

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MemoirMosaics's avatar

It's indeed beautiful and thoughtful.

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Mark Diacono's avatar

Thank you

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Joanna Nixon's avatar

Only 64. That’s shitty. My Papa was 59, so I know your pain. You made me think of him, so that was good.

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Gillian Bevan's avatar

My dad was forty . I was ten. (Not that it’s in any way a competition…….) - but reading this is a great way to start a Sunday , with my son and his gorgeous girlfriend sleeping downstairs………..

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Mark Diacono's avatar

Oh Gillian, 40 is just beyond unfair - I’m very sorry. I hope the rest of your Sunday is restful

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Gillian Bevan's avatar

Sweet of you to respond. Though it undoubtedly left its mark, -as it does for all of us, Ive had a fabulous and charmed life in so many ways. Carpeing the hell out of diem every day is the aim!

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Mark Diacono's avatar

Thank you Joanna. It’s not bad when they come to visit is it

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